I stepped into my destiny. I committed myself to the first step and said yes. I stepped out of the chaos just for a moment, out of the confusion and uncertainty, and through the soft veil of time into connection, love, infinity. Since I was a kid I wanted to ‘help heal the world of pain and suffering’ (my eyes roll now at my naivety.) Now I know that is not what is required of me, it’s not my place or my responsibility. My responsibility is to heal myself, to eek out all the painful hooks and let go of all the suffering I chose to hold on to. It is my responsibility to shine like the sun, without casting any shadows on the world, so I can walk hand in hand with others as they embark on their own journey of healing and transformation. You see I am a shaman of the Inca tradition, a medicine man, an energy worker, a conduit between heaven and earth. I started my journey in the south, place of the serpent, place of illumination, place of fire, light and combustion. To walk hand in hand with someone as you take your step from pain to bliss, is a tremendous experience, more than any other healing experience I have been through. Wounds; deep, insidious, unconscious, hidden. They are all drawn up and combusted within the fires of our bellies. I found it difficult at first to show my vulnerability, to show my dark frightened side, my soft belly, and to bring it up and present abandonment, hurt, self doubt, this work is only for the brave. Then within moments, see it transform into peace, acceptance, joy and laughter, miracles do happen. I had doubts about myself as a shaman, doubts that I could do it, doubts that I would be any good, fire combusted it. I stepped into the role of shaman and I realised that the 'thinking mind' has no place in that moment. When you cradle someone’s head in your hands, searching their soul for the vulnerability and pain, and giving it permission to surface, no mind is required, only presence, intent, love. And we wait for infinity to come. When the healing happens infinity takes over. Its like God lifts you up and says, 'I'll take over from here, Iv'e got this...' Infinity seeps into every part of your being, it seeps into the room and the person you are holding. They called it, its theirs (and all of ours.) The world stops, just for a moment, but it feels like forever. The body calls you back, a deep gasp of life and breath, like the first breath of a newborn. And there, glowing in the corners of the mouth, like a sun dappled forest floor, is a smile. The illumination process takes that which you no longer need, that which stops you saying yes to life, that causes pain, suffering, illness, and combusts it with light. The transformational power of fire - serpent - brings the wound to infinity, and when you come back, it starts to transform into love, peace, acceptance, laughter, enabling you to take a step towards new life. Hatun Amaru, great serpent, Sachamama. Thank you thank you, thank you for helping us shed our past the way you so beautifully shed your skin. Thank you for your coils of light you so gently and powerfully wrap around us. Thank you for helping us feel and sense the deep recesses of the soul to find that which no longer serves us. Thank you for helping us to grow and shine so beautifully as you do. Ho! Serpent WalkerCoils of light wrap around me, as I call serpent to me.
Soft scales gently and slowly enfold me, squeezing the spaces in my mind and soul, I see you lurking there, un-named shadow, Let me feel you, let me know you, remember you. Coils of light wrap around me, my breath quickens, my throat clamps up. No where left to hide, shadows run, pouring the ache all through me, shadow hiding in a Kuya Don’t be afraid, you will be my medicine! Coils of light wrap around me, and like its prey before the kill, I surrender with love and relief A little death touches me as the last of my breath is squeezed out I melt into infinity. Coils of light wrap around me, and I am floating on an ocean of light. My body calls me back, and I unravel, leaving me to bask in the warmth of the sun. Naked I lay like a heathen on the rocks, tears rolling down my cheek. I take a deep breath of joy and laughter bursts out! Hatun Amaru, Hatun Amaru, Sachamama.
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Many people ask me “What is a shaman?” or “What is Shamanism?”
(Deep breath) A Shaman is a type of priest, a healer, a psychiatrist, they were the first medicine people. They are a conduits between heaven and earth, walkers between the worlds, with one foot in the here and now, with all its beauty and pain, and one foot in the other-world, a world of potential, of grace, of spirit, of energy. A shaman sees the world through different eyes. We can only see a tiny fraction of the light available to us, all the colours we can see, all the lights and images we know is minuscule compared to what actually Is. 98% of our DNA (scientists claim,) is just ‘Junk.’ 99.9999999% of all solid matter is empty space. Which means that less than 1% of this world we live in is actually solid matter! Its heavy, present, full of joy, pleasure, pain and suffering. 99% of life here is energetic, space, spirit, light, a shaman works in this 99% world, affecting the 1% world we live in. Everything you see in front of you is a result of your thoughts and beliefs. Everything you can see, feel, touch, smell, taste, is a dream You created, therefore all of the events you see, the life circumstances your experience, and the people in your life who push your buttons are a part of your inner landscape. So if your landscape is full of scare-city, pain, suffering, grief, then that is what you will see, experience and know, but if you heal these wounds within, you will know the gifts inside them, instead you will experience abundance, pleasure, joy, happiness. During my training on the medicine wheel to become a shaman of the Inca tradition, I got to meet my ancestors, they were called through us to speak to us. I met an ancestor who lived in the early 1900's in New York, called Kenny. He was a fun loving kinda guy, an entrepreneur, dreamer, no one took him seriously, he turned to drink and gambling and eventually died of a heart attack. He said he felt like he was one of life’s losers. When we said goodbye he left me a gift “keep shining your gifts, your talents...and keep em laughing, people need to laugh, even if they think they don’t…” During my interview process, to start my healing journey, I said I felt like a loser. I felt I didn’t seem to be getting anywhere in life, each time I tried to do something I seemed to sabotage it. I started to cry tears of grief, sadness and anger, where did all this come from? I was tested to see if I had an entity within my luminous energy field, I tested positive. You see spirits can live within your luminous energy field, they feel just like your own energy so you wouldn’t know it was there, living through you; the entity was Kenny. We were connected because we both felt like losers, that was the hook, together we attracted situations in our life that made us feel like losers, opportunities would slip through our fingers, fear would grasp us. He was honoured, thanked, and sent on his way home. During the illumination process lots of hucha (Heavy energy; we don't use the term 'negative energy') came out, thick dark smog. My luminous energy field was opened up and crystallised energy that became stuck was extracted, this blocked my own energy flow, heavy lumps over my chest and throat were removed, the hook, the 'Loser' part of me was removed. Then light was poured all through me, filling up all the gaps that were left in its place, I felt peaceful, still, sacred, I reached infinity. My fight or flight pattern was switched off allowing me to rest in peace. When I came back into the room I felt silly, I laughed a little, I brought back joy and something else, 'Who cares?!' I laughed, 'Who cares if I’m a loser!?' I laughed more, I felt free, I felt love. I raised up my arms, 'So what?!” I felt free to be me. I still feel that if I fall or fail, I can laugh and get back up and carry on with joy in my heart. Shamanic healing is a transformational tool, a blessing, a gift, its like coming home, its like finding your family, its like falling in love. To experience it you must be ready to give all of yourself, to open up fully and embrace all of who you are, the good and the bad. Miracles do happen, it’s totally up to you if you want them to. So what is shamanism? Its miracle making. |
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